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hap·py
/ˈhapē/
adjective
1.feeling or showing pleasure or contentment.
Depression runs rampant in my family, so from a young age, with the help and creativity from my parents, I have tried many things to maintain “happiness.” Rearranging furniture, laying out in the sunshine, exercising, etc. I once donated my curtains and other textiles and replaced them with brighter, lighter colors and fabrics to open up my room and let in more light. It’s little tricks like these that have kept me intact for years. But this last year was a rollercoaster of constant highs and lows. I became “discombooberated” and let my mental health fall to the wayside. According to the definition above, happiness can be defined as feeling OR showing joy. As we age, we learn how to express happiness, even when it is not genuine. So technically, yes, I am happy. I am capable of expressing happiness. But do I feel it? Genuinely? Not as much as I’d like. And it effects EVERYTHING. For a while, my husband honestly believed that my discontentment was wholly caused by him. And I’ve pleaded for him not to think it has anything to do with his performance as a husband. Unfortunately in my case, actions speak louder than words. Deep down, my sweet Justin holds himself responsible for my lack of vibrance. I am so blessed to have married someone who holds my happiness with such weight. And his happiness is as equally important to me. So for my mental health, and my marriage, I have decided to take on this challenge. It’s little tricks that kept me happy before, so why not try something as simple as The 30 Day No-Fail Happiness Challenge?  I decided to take a few additional steps in order to keep me organized. I created a calendar that correlates with the challenge’s steps, as well as started this blog. I wanted to be able to expound on the calendar. In all honesty, just getting everything started is already making me feel more cheery. 🙂